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Taking baby steps towards a better me

Hi guys!

I can’t believe how much my life has changed in the past few months.

So from my previous (I know its been ages) post you know that I have moved back home with the parents. I took this opportunity to actually get my life in order again and to do something for myself. And thats EXACTLY what I have been doing in the past few weeks. Keep reading to see what I am talking about!

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Coming back home has not exactly been the easiest ride of my life. Adapting to living with the parents after being independent living alone for 6 years has had its ups and downs for sure. I am so lucky though to have such amazing parents who just let me take my time with settling in and doing my own things. Anyways enough about that. So here I was, back in my childhood bedroom trying to figure out what to do next. I was lucky to get a job pretty much straight away which has helped me to put aside money worries. But I was stuck whether should I do a course, should I eat my weight in pasta (not the worst choice ha), should I start working out, should I this should I that…

This is when I realised that I need to take things easy and slow down with the planning. Don’t get me wrong planning your life is great, but I was going over the top. I wanted things to happen and to happen quick instead of making long term plans. I went through a lot in the first few months of the year and I had to get my mind into the right place before I could plan anything else, such as studying.

A few weeks have passed and I was starting to feel much more comfortable with my situation. I was settling into work, my mind was recovering from the breakup and I was starting to go to the gym. YES, … me,…  I started going to the gym.. Still ate crap and takeaways etc but I was getting into a new routine.

This is when everything started clicking into place. I decided that instead of studying a new course, I wanted to get fit. I wanted to get fit every New Years, every month at least once but was just never in the right place mentally before. BUT this time it was different. This time I decided to go big with the plans and have done a lot of research and set out an achievable (VERY HARD BUT ACHIEVABLE) goal.

I signed myself up to a fitness competition. AND PLEASE don’t be one of those who imagines a fitness competition having 1 category which is the super muscled women. THATS just one of MANY categories. Give it a google and you’ll see that you can have bikini, toned and physique. Physique is where you’ll see the huge muscles and honestly (virtual) hat off to those competitors as it ain’t easy being so ripped. I of course sign ed up to the bikini division, as I want to build slight muscle with definition but keep feminine. (thats what the website describe it as).

So I am starting week 3 of my prep (got about 18 weeks) on Monday and I am super excited to see results. I will surely keep you posted and will do a before/after style post half way through as well as at the end of my prep. It is hard, and requires a lot of dedication already but I can see my body change and I just feel like a different person. I think I have found my happiness again. I can’t complain!

Make sure to follow me on my other social media to keep up to date with my meals and post workout selfies (neither of them is pretty but heyho).

Please let me know if you have done something similar or if you have ideas on how to keep motivated in similar situation.

Fil, x


Learning to cope…

Hey guys!

If you have read my previous post you know that something major has happened in my life  in the past few weeks. It has not been easy to find the motivation to even get out of bed, but I am now able to talk about it and it may be helpful for some of you going through a similar situation.

People do say bad things happen in 3s and believe you me, they do. I am a firm believer that things to happen for a reason and there is an explanation and a plan at the end of all this. It really doesn’t feel that way right now, but I am trying to be as positive about the situation as I can.

Right, so these 3 events happened within a week, which has made them much more difficult to deal with for me. Feels like the whole world is just upside down right now and I was loosing my grip. So as I said in 5 days I basically became single, homeless and jobless. One event led to another really. When myself and J broken up we both sort of became homeless as we had to start looking for a new place to rent. If you are a pet owner you know how difficult it is to find a place which accepts pets when you are renting. Once I finally found a flat that was within budget, accepted pets and was in a good location to work I thought I was all settled and ready to move. Unfortunately life had another idea, and my management given me the option to relocate to another location in the country or to make me redundant basically. (downsizing this branch to build up others instead) . This has come as a shock to my system, however due to not knowing the other city I was not able to make that decision. I wouldn’t have had any friends, and after breaking up, being completely alone was just not the option I wanted to follow. I have since looked for other jobs and have gotten many other offers, but non of which seem that great for me.

A drip here,a drop there, conserve water with care.

This is the reason why I decided that in order to have a chance at finding myself and getting back on my feet, I will move home to my parents’ house for a few months. The only issue is that it is in Ireland, and I have lived alone here in Manchester for 6 years. Big changes and a lot of adaptation is necessary and I need to see the positive in all of this. I have to continuously tell myself this is not a failure and I will once again move back to the UK or elsewhere once I am feeling better and my finances are sorted. I acrually found a job befoe I even moved back so I am well and truly ready to start moving on and planning my future.

I wanted to share this with you as I am sure I am not the only one that has gone through something like this. I want to make sure that you all know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that things happen for a reason. I realise this now and this is why I can talk about what happened more openly.

I am  now back home with the parents and I am not going to lie, it is difficult to adjust but I am working on things. I know this was the best choice for me and I am extremely lucky and gratful that I had the oportunity of coming home.

I am thankful to all of you for sticking around and for being inspirational to keep going.
I will be back to normal shortly and cannot wait to share some great posts with you guys!

Love, as always
Fil, x