Can you believe its June already? Where the heck is the time going ??
Oh I’ve had such a busy few weeks, and I thought I’ll give you guys a wee update about how my prepping is going for this show.
If you are new to filsjourney, WELCOME. I am just your average food lover who has decided to go on a crazy journey and lifestyle change. I have even signed myself up to a fitness competition (bikini class) and I cannot bloody wait to see how my body transforms.
I will no doubt post some transformation pictures after my first 6 weeks is over 🙂 Make sure to follow the blog and my IG to see the results.
Right let’s get onto todays topic. This is something I don’t often talk about but I find really important. I have been challenging myself in the last few weeks and achieving things I never thought my body and mind could be capable of. Therefore I thought why not share with you my real struggles. I know I am not the only one going through these issues, but I do think it is not addressed enough. I am talking about mental health and anxiety. Social media has took off in the last few years and YES we have a few big names who have talked about their mental health however I do think it has been a subject of abuse too recently. I wish for nothing more than the people who are not struggling to STOP pretending to have anxiety just to get sympathy on social media. Not even sympathy but followers. Its ridiculous, as its something I don’t wish on anyone and there times I would give you my all to be able to get rid of it.
As you may have guessed from the title, I used to be a comfort eater. I don’t remember ever not being one. I firmly remember the issue starting when my nan passed away over 13 years ago. I am only 24 so yeah, more than half of my life I had this thing clouding up my mind and I never even knew about it. It is such a viscous circle! I felt crap so I ate my favourite food, and then I felt bad about my body changing so I went on a crash diet. When the diet didn’t work or I regained the weight I did the whole thing over again. It has taken me so long to finally LOVE and accept my body for the way it is. I want other people to realise, the same way as I did that you only get the one body and the one mind and instead of punishing it, you should look after it. Don’t get me wrong, I may not be 100% happy with my body, but this is why I have started to change my lifestyle and work out and eat better.
Honestly I cannot recommend exercise enough. I have also started to read a few books about anxiety and how to overcome panic attacks and how to love your body etc and they are helping me so so so much. It is not easy to make a change at the start. Maybe start by going for a walk once a week, and then increase it and by the end of a few weeks you will realise how much better you will feel on the days where you work out. Yoga and pilates is also something I would recommend. I have tried yoga a few times and honestly my mind was at peace and rest, and I didn’t worry about anything else apart from getting my body stretched out.
Basically what I am trying to say is that you do not have to punish yourself and feel bad by eating at 10pm, instead go an do something great for your body tomorrow. Take a step forward and respect the body that you got. Do your best to make your body and mind the best it can be for your own good. DO not try to copy someone especially from social media as not all of that is real. Be yourself and listen to your body, respect it and take care of it as you really only have the one life.
I am really happy that I no longer feel the constant anxiety. Don’t get me wrong it happens every so often, but by listening to great music, going to the gym to get my stress out, doing yoga to clear my mind and stretch my body, helps me a LOT. I found something that makes me feel much better than eating junk food. I not only feel proud of myself for going to the gym, but I also see the changes that are happening to my body and I am stronger than I have ever been before. It truly is a fantastic thing to love your body and take care of your mind. I am glad I see it now and can finally work on my issues to become the person I know I can be.
If you have similar issues, don’t be afraid to talk to someone. Seek some help, choose exercise over any other method that harms your body. Take some time out of the stressful situation you may be in. Read a book or listen to music. Respect yourself. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! No-one masters their life in one day, so relax and let yourself achieve your goals at your own pace.